Randomness

It’s getting really hot here again. After relative coolness of the last week, I feel like I’m going to boil any moment now. Well, not when I’m in the office. We have fantastic air-conditioners here, or at least that’s what I think now.



Yesterday I got back to the dancing classes. Hadn’t been attending ever since mid-May and realized that I missed this part of my life way too much. But first I left for UK and Switzerland, then I had some issues with the previous job, and then the new one started, so it somewhat ruled out my return. I am happy now though. We have this amazing dance to “Bring me to life” by Evanescence. Can you imagine how epic strip dance to this song can be? Believe me, you can’t :))

Plus, dancing has always been there for the last 11 years. A lot of stuff has changed since then, but dancing was like an anchor for my sanity. Something that I could rely on to being stability whenever I needed it most. I think it would do good now that I have a period of huge changes in life, what with my terrible heartbreak and new job, and lots of stuff I have to deal with :( Dancing seems like the only way to actually deal with all of that so far.

Some babbling now… Last weekend I went to see Eclipse, and although I have already posed all I could about it on my LJ, I am sort of bored enough to repeat myself.

A little torn apart here… I loved the books, and I all but swallowed all 4 of them in no time


The movies were a constant disappointment though and I still have no idea what exactly made me what them all. Curiosity perhaps, or maybe hope. I wish they were better.

Eclipse was… well, dull, empty, one-time movie that I hardly imagine watching again. Most of actors looked like they were bored like hell to film it, I almost expected them to start yawning any moment. The faces were emotionless and blank most of time. I remember the book – not as well as if I’d read it last week, but more or less clear, and it was really, really interesting and intense. Movie, on the other hand, lacked all of that. I didn’t exactly want to stand up and read, but when the movie was over, it was almost a relief that I am free to go, finally!

Plus, what can be worse than listening to Bella and Edward talking about pros and cons of marriage? It was so ridiculous! Will you marry me? – Only if you turn me! – No way. Oh, okay, I’ll turn you if you marry me. – Fine, but we sleep first, so that I knew what it feels like as human.

I’m going to puke if I ever hear that crap again. Seriously, guys, that’s ALL you can talk and think about! The books were somewhat the same about that, but at least I didn’t have to see R.Pattinson when I was reading. What were they thinking when they gave them the role of the breathtakingly beautiful young man???? Haven’t they SEEN him when he auditioned?? That’s just beyond me :(

So, waste of time and money. You go out the cinema and forget and it the next moment. I will probably go and watch Breaking Dawn when they release it though, but out of curiosity mostly. Bella is supposed to become heavenly pretty there and I wonder HOW they are going to do it (???)

And what annoys me most is that some people seriously believe that L.J.Smith took her eyes for The Vampire Diaries from S.Meyer’s “Twilight”. And no one can see that “Twilight” had been written 15 later than “The Vampire Diaries” >:(( Isn’t it crazy? It drives me nits :(((

Speaking of “The Vampire Diaries”, can’t wait for the show premiere. Well, can’t wait for September generally, this is when I apply for the UK visa in my attempt to go to A5. I’ll do my best to be there. Let’s see if they allow me to have personal leave here. I know that I really need it. Some scape from reality, plus a good trip, that I have in mind, will deffo make things better and it’ll help me to settle. I need to escape… wish I could run away forever…

Surviving, so far...

Okay then… it kinda sucks to be stuck here on the weekend, and the fact that we’ll still have 3 days of rest ahead doesn’t make it any different, really. My previous colleagues have day off today and believe me, I’m soooo jealous! Not that I have any specific plans. In fact, after what I’ve learned today most of my plans can go right to hell because there’re no guarantees… But – more about it later in my LJ. Stay tuned!

So, now I sit and have coffee and I am comfortably cold after terrible heat of the previous office. One day to go, and then the real work begins. Let’s see if I’m strong enough to handle it. I’m not the one to give up… but there’s always smth about circumstances that are out of control.


Now, let’s leave the sad stuff behind. I can complain as much as I want, but I still do have 3 days of rest ahead and it is not bad, right? The previous job taught me to love weekends. Looks like now I’m going to adore them. Mmm, got back to the sad stuff again…

Been watching “The Vampire Diaries” last night, episodes 08-09, about Bonnie being possessed by her ancestor’s ghost and about return of Logan Fell. These are good, and they’ve got Damon in there.

Damon… I guess I can’t quite get him yet. His violence surprises and scares me sometimes but on the other hand, with all his so-called hatred for Stefan, he still helps him and Elena. He’s not entirely selfish. If he came to just get Katherine back, he could have found quicker ways to get to her – like kill some people or threaten them to get her back or something. There was no need for him to stay there after that.

Yet, I think that killing Lexie was completely unjustified, and turning Vicky and killing her then, too. I liked Vicky. So, he has his flaws, but unlike Stefan in later episodes, where he got addicted to human blood, Damon is still more conscious and in control of himself. And he’s hurt. I mean he can be witty and all, but he’s hurt and doesn’t know how to deal with it. I so cannot wait for September! Season 2 is going to be a blast, I’m sure. Season 1 finale was fantastic, although I have my doubts about Jeremy’s death. Not sure he’s turn into a vampire. Something tells me that he’ll be saved before that happens, but let’s wait and see how good my intuition works.

Oh, and Internet at home didn’t work this morning. It sucks twice as much now that I cannot check my personal email at the office and all, but hope it’ll be fine by the time I get back home. I’m DL-ing some shows, you know, to survive summer hiatus, so I sort of need it. And of course I miss talking to my friends *sighs*


And this is what helps me survive! Isn’t he adorable?

First entry :)))))

Okay, let’s see what my life will be like now that I’m cut off the rest of the world.


My LJ is still intact but here I’ll probably leave messages now and then throughout the day when I cannot use any other networks.

It feels weird. Not exactly bad because I have some sort of addiction to FB and Twitter and the like, and not visiting them will probably save me a whole ton of time, but I feel a little lost anyway. New place is stressful enough to add losing my contacts with friends at the same time.

I like it here, so far at least. Don’t really like wearing white blouses and high heels but I can get used to it. Need to do some clothes shopping this weekend again I’m afraid. Where do people find stuff to wear in the office anyway? Oo Spent three last weeks looking for something decent and yet came empty-handed. I’m afraid I’ll end up wearing those 4 blouses I have all the time :P

Things to keep me sane at the moment (to keep me sane AND stop me from running back to where everything is easy and familiar):

• Hope that I’ll manage to go to Asylum 5 after all. My probation should be over by then anyway

• Watching and reading The Vampire Diaries every night. I got somewhat addicted to the show although Supernatural is still there, too LOL Two months that are still left till Season 2 are going to be looong.

• The fact that mum works 2 blocks down the street and I can go see her on lunch breaks

• I’ll probably go back to dance classes next week. Miss my girls much!

Things that still scare me a little:

• Need to learn to behave around some people – all people to be honest

• Need to get used to some regulations so that I wouldn’t break the rules by accident

Okay then, it’s nearly lunch time and soon I will be able to drift into me Damon Salvatore Dreamland for a little while – to relax and gain my composure back :)



xoxo